Hereby is recorded the lonely demented and poorly spelled ramblings of the infamous Muskie McKay. I use infamous in the Steve Martin sense of the word of course. Within these pages I hope to record thoughts and observations over the next 13 months because it is such an auspicious number.
I dedicate these writings to Jesus's brothers: James, Simon, Jude and Thomas. Mostly because I am reading the "Messianic Legacy" right now but a watchful eye from above couldn't hurt if one is of this particular faith.
This book should envelope my time in Oregon which I can't say I'm looking forward too. It should also encompass my triumphant return to Europe though I intend to keep my ass riding to a minimum. I will likely have a second volume to cover those months.
My hope with this book is that by recording my thoughts and observations down honestly they will be used against me in a court of law or in a medical inquest concerning my sanity. Everyone deserves the right to have their own words come back to haunt them.
I also hope over the next 13 months to come to some conclusion concerning the three J's. And I'm not referring to Jesus, James and Jude/Judas.
I take it I had planned to write more, my life took some bad turns and I think I wrote too much and certainly published too much. Ruthless self-editing is a valuable skill. I wonder what befell me to prevent me from elaborating, maybe I realized one of the J's might read this. Maybe I just got busy. I did return to Japan, that got a journal entry. Alas some problems never got sovled even after twenty years. It was a desire to have some sort of Quality standard for this webpage that led me to edit this old entries even if just to fix busted links. I don't want to revisit my old journals, I had them in Vancouver, but I've ripped down from the Internet a lot of my more depressing writings so perhaps that is what happened to this entry, I couldn't bare to turn the page and type out more.